I am certain that I never did grow in grace one-half so much anywhere as I have upon the bed of pain. ~ Charles Spurgeon
How
can God allow a mother to betray her daughter? She bears false witness, she leaves
her daughter with unbearable pain that you often wonder if she ever knew the
meaning of love and if she ever loved her daughter at all. She uses
everyone around her she is the grand puppeteer in a skill full game of not give
and take only take. She uses raw emotions to have every tool to cut through the
flesh of her own child. She now can to turn the winds of change in her
direction. A direction where she can bear innocence, and judge others as
guilty. She moves the situation in her favor where all that is blind will
believe a lie. This is the grand façade and grand deception of Satan, he has a
hold and he is not letting go, he has reached his ultimate goal of tearing
apart the souls of God’s most beloved children. Sadly, the mother has obliged
the whispers of demonic influence and now everything that surrounds her is
nothing but darkness which he has even fooled her into thinking she is in the
grand light of our Father in heaven.
People
are often confused by evil and how Satan is allowed to maneuver in and out of
our lives. It is not Satan doing the work it is those that he is influencing
that is doing his bidding. Satan did not eat of the fruit, he did not cause the
fall of mankind. This was because of the actions of our first parents. Satan
can do nothing without God’s approval, he has NO authority over anything unless
it is allowed. He is allowed to tempt, little does he know that when he is
allowed God uses it for His benefit to strengthen His children. Satan knows the
sinful side of our nature more than we do after all he is the father of sin. He
uses it against us, how? The answer is so many people steer clear of the Bible
because it shows us who we really are a sinful, fallen, race. When we harbor
our sin and not face it we are heading down a road that is full of so much
pain. Deception is his greatest and most effective tool. If you listen to a lie
long enough you will start to believe it. After all he is the master of all
lies and when we are not planted firmly in His word, which is the very sword
that can take him down we are in trouble. He is roaming this earth to all four
corners looking for weakness, looking for someone with just enough hate in them
to tempt. He is looking for that person that has a selfish heart someone that
will do all that they can to steal what is not theirs. Just enough jealousy
mixed with that hate it is a grand recipe for destruction. Just enough to tear
down what God is on his way to build up.
Little do so many understand that this
is where testing our faith begins. We should never think why is this happening
to me? We should ask what is God showing me in this?
Have
you ever felt like you were out on an emotional iceberg all by yourself?
Feeling like you are the last person on the face of the earth that has been
hurt? The waves beat the very foundation of what is left of your life. You are
beaten, bruised, and nothing and I mean nothing helps, you find no comfort in
the words that family and friends offer to help you heal. You are at the very
bottom of the misery that haunts you day and night. The never-ending words that
ring in your ear over and over “What did I do to deserve to be treated this
way”? Why have I been left to drown in my own blood that my enemies caused”?
God
knows your pain it is personal to him too, he knows because he too was on an
emotional iceberg in the Garden of Gethsemane so much he sweated blood as he
prayed and grieved. I am sure at that moment he felt like the last person on
the face of the earth. He was beaten and bruised and did nothing to deserve it.
He was left to drown in his own blood that his enemies caused.
How
can God allow a mother to betray her daughter? Because it is through the
unbearable pain my mother caused that brought me to my knees placed my Lord
directly in my path, his pierced blood stained hands reached down and pulled me
up. His unfathomable grace has given me strength, taught me how to love those
who persecute me rather than hate them. Through this I have learned to love
those who do not love me, to bless those who curse me, to make peace when there
is hurt and anger, through all this I still honor and love my mother. It is
from afar, but she is still in the deepest most private part of my prayers even
though I doubt her love for me. I have upon the bed of my pain been born again,
upon the bed of pain I have learned to embrace the cross as my savior did.
Amen...
~ Shannon Wendler